You are not alone. I have lived through more dark nights of the soul than I care to admit and yet, I am now living a life I truly love. It isn't always pretty, and it is by no means perfect (after all, I'm on the eternal plan) but I have so much more hope, peace, and joy than I ever thought possible.
I know the pain of living a half life; of going through the motions day after day asking yourself, "Is this it? Is this all my life is going to amount to?" I know what it is like to have a knowing deep within my aching heart that I came here to be more, to do more, with this one precious life I have been given.
I have spent many years in untold turmoil complaining, worrying, and angry at the world. With good reason, I thought, for my relationships were in shambles, my finances teetering on the brink of bankruptcy, and my fragile mind was succumbing to the inevitable pull of very black hole.
I lived nearly 50 years feeling like something was missing...like I was missing. I felt like I didn't even know who I was anymore and why, in God's name, I was even put on earth in the first place. Frightfully, I had lost touch with the real, essential me; the me that is whole, perfect and free. I felt like damaged goods.
During some of my darkest days, I would wake in the morning, look into the mirror and be startled by who was looking back at me. I could no longer see my beauty, feel my glory, hear my own wise voice.
I thought this business of being a spiritual being having a human experience was for the birds. I didn't like it and I told God so...often. Yet I remained true and steadfast on my course. I desperately wanted to come home to myself and was determined to do whatever it took to get there.
I have survived an abusive childhood, failed marriage, unsatisfying careers, financial calamity, severe depression, and more but, but through grace, I have come to bless each and every bit of my soul's unfolding journey.
Today I live a Spirit-centered life and strive daily to create my life triumphant. It is with deep appreciation that I am now blessed with the opportunity to help others do the same.
I bid you peace.......
Denny
Inspiring Change ~ Transforming Lives